Missing my Tranquil

 Meditation helped, I still the stress but sometimes it's others' stresses that mess with my head. I want so much to be happy at home, happy working, happy when I look into the mirror. I want to run my own shop and find the happiness I miss working not noticed, not appreciated, barely even seen. When I think about that shop I so desperately want that low self-worth rears its head and I think am I smart enough, could I do it. To be able to sell photos Ive taken, clothes Ive sought out to sell, to travel and find more projects and things to sell. These thoughts are ugly and wrong but this is why I am working on me. 

"Meditation is not about stopping thoughts, but recognizing that we are more than our thoughts and our feelings."

Sad feelings will come and go but find that smallest amount of happy and grab hold and change your moment. We all question the grass in our neighbors yard but who says they aren't hiding bad spots with pretty yard decor. Look at your grass and find that soft grass that feels good between your toes. I haven't gotten to take pictures in a while but I know I need a small adventure to go out and destress and photograph things that are beautiful to me. Adventures and music, meditation and writing, it all helps and will help me find me. 

It's Critical: Let's try something new.

 When you have a disability like mine, pseudoseizures, the stress causes the seizures, and what little self-worth I’ve found just dissolves away. A doctor said to try and meditate daily. I wonder if it will help, I am going to start trying this because I just want the stress gone and the seizures to go away or at least improve. The main thing is I need more help with that image I see in the mirror of myself inside.

“You owe yourself the love you so freely give others.”

“You have been criticizing yourself for years and it hasn’t worked. Try approving of yourself and see what happens.”

Let’s try these things together and see if they work:

1.       Meditate 10 to 30 minutes daily.

2.       Try to do 10 minutes of yoga daily.

3.       Keep a journal, write daily, even if it’s just a sentence.

4.       Walk, jog, something active 15-30 minutes daily.

5.       Listen to music, sing, hum, during stressful moments.

6.       Start blogging and/or vlogging even if it is just for yourself.

I’ve started journaling and blogging and plan on try to start a vlog. I’m starting meditation and beginners yoga. So I will starting everything with you and we will be working through this together.

Maybe my words will help others with low self-esteem, stress and maybe even some like me with a disability that cause more physical problems like myself. I started back up with my photography, I love nature and taking adventures and capturing those shots to show people the beauty I get to see helps with some stress.

Let’s keep this up together for mental, emotional, and for some physical health. I’m right here with you.

“If stress burned calories, I’d be a supermodel.”

“I stress about stress before there’s even stress to stress about.”