Meditation helped, I still the stress but sometimes it's others' stresses that mess with my head. I want so much to be happy at home, happy working, happy when I look into the mirror. I want to run my own shop and find the happiness I miss working not noticed, not appreciated, barely even seen. When I think about that shop I so desperately want that low self-worth rears its head and I think am I smart enough, could I do it. To be able to sell photos Ive taken, clothes Ive sought out to sell, to travel and find more projects and things to sell. These thoughts are ugly and wrong but this is why I am working on me.
"Meditation is not about stopping thoughts, but recognizing that we are more than our thoughts and our feelings."
Sad feelings will come and go but find that smallest amount of happy and grab hold and change your moment. We all question the grass in our neighbors yard but who says they aren't hiding bad spots with pretty yard decor. Look at your grass and find that soft grass that feels good between your toes. I haven't gotten to take pictures in a while but I know I need a small adventure to go out and destress and photograph things that are beautiful to me. Adventures and music, meditation and writing, it all helps and will help me find me.
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